What music to make? It's very simple.

Any music that nobody will ever want to use for a commercial.

Any music that won't get you any groupies.

Any music that even your friends couldn't pretend to like to please you.

As a teenager, around the age of 14 or 15, I had rented a Kawai "synth" from the music store we frequented, and where I took my music lessons. I had installed it in the cellar, with the old tape recorder on which I had been listening to my tapes since childhood. I discovered while using it, with an indescribable mental pleasure, the possibility of recording on a sequencer, even primitive, of multiplying the musical phrases, the layers, the rhythms, a pleasure that is completely "banal" even tedious today...

I composed several small pieces, of which I have no memory today. It seems to me that I used a lot of percussions, bells... Influenced as I was, heavily, by Dead Can Dance, and the "dark ambient" and assimilated sound backgrounds that one could hear at the time on France Culture (notably The Moon Lay Hidden Beneath a Cloud and Muslimgauze, but I didn't know their names then). These songs were recorded on a cassette tape, which is historically my very first "demo". It was a bit forgotten over time, I didn't attach too much importance to it; it seems to me that Xavier, to whom I had lent it, had eventually lost it, or erased it. I did not become aware of this loss until years later, a loss that now appears to me as central.

The problems around the lost work, the forgotten work, incomplete, badly retranscribed, parasitic, apocryphal, uncertain, etc... that I developed, a good fifteen years later, and that I try to integrate into my writings (with a certain Borgesian light influence, let's say) as well as into my musical projects, come from there, from this first demo of which nothing remains.